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How the hell was I so lucky to have a wife like her?!

I’m just really happy tonight. There’s so many reasons to be happy for, because I have everything I need. My mom and I talked today, and realized that we’ll never be the same and we just argue a lot because we’re so much alike, but we’ll still love each other no matter what. It’s just a girl thing, and honestly, the arguments can be a little funny because we both end up laughing about it afterwards.

I had a little talk with two of the girls I haven’t really been fond with today. One, was one of my closest friends since ever, and it’s always hard to understand her, and it’s partially my fault for just being… a bitch. The second one, she hasn’t been my friend for long but she’s having some misunderstandings with one of my other friends right now, and she reached out to me first. Now, I’m not reconciling with everyone….. just sayin’. I’ll drop whoever I wanna drop, and I’ve already done so.

I’ve spent the past few days hanging out a lot with the boyfriend and we’ve had too many cuddling sessions, I’m too used to them now. I went out to Sakura for his dad’s dinner on Saturday night and spent more time with him after. I’m just happy that my family loves him, and his family loves me, and that with an Asian mom like mine, I’m thankful that she lets me go out with him, and lets him come over and even hang out in the bedroom with me. I know that’s not common in Asian parents to let their daughters do that, and I’m just thankful and happy that my mom accepts him (even though she knows in her heart, she’d rather me date a Viet than a white boy.)

My grades in school are perfectly fine, except for APES…. but honestly, I don’t really care about that class. I’m surprised I’m not behind, after missing a week of school. I’ve even narrowed my colleges down - it’s either going to be UMBC or CUA. I’ll go to CUA if they give me money, I’m not trying to pay $45,000 a year. But either way, I’m happy that I’m okay about everything, and even though I stress out a lot about school, especially, it’s all okay. I’m just a little overdramatic and indecisive.

I think the thing, is that, I look at too many of the negative factors. I don’t take time to look at the positive things, and I complain too much. That’s something I need to improve on. I’m doing better, but there will always be room for improvement. 

I’m so thankful that I have someone like this in my life.

Just once, acknowledge what you’ve done and own up to it. Stop playing the blame game. Stop pointing fingers. And most of all, stop snitching. To some degree, it is your fault. I can’t fuck with people who constantly play the role of a victim and make every excuse on the book to in order to avoid their own responsibility. Man the fuck up, own up to what you do and say.